today was ... up and down-y. i really didn't enjoy it at all. my worse fear ever: emotion. i can't handle feeling too many things at once, like right now. i don't know what to do. call me clueless, but here's how my day went.
most of my day, i spent with ryan. he's is funny. a little bit of a douche when he spaces out, but he's great company-- especially since he doesn't mind the "awkward" silence. but even ryan can be a bit of a jerk. i found today that he's really sharp-tongued, bagging on russell majorly. i mean, he knows russell better than i do, but i know him well enough. and the way ryan just threw those words around, it was just cold.
and that wasn't the first time. he did the same thing yesterday, with a girl named sarah. she sits at his bio table, and when i was there, they seemed to get along pretty well. then yesterday, as she walked by, cosplaying something, all he could say was "what a queer." i mean, i don't think he even looked at her. it made me unsure-- does he slam on me too, behind my back?
but enough about ryan. let's talk about evan. yes, fucking evan buchan. he hasn't been here all week, so he did absolutely nothing on our biology lab. nothing. sally and i had to take over his part. it simply led us to no choice: he couldn't take any credit on this lab. and it was too bad because our group decided that the day before the lab was due, today. so, i told everyone not to tell evan via phone or text, but that we'll talk to him tomorrow, as a group, so he couldn't possibly point fingers at anyone-- namely me, because i know the least well.
and they told him anyway, in the morning. i guess they just couldn't hold their tongue. and when i told them how upset i was, cause this was the second time evan pointed fingers at me, they just told me to ignore it-- easier said than done.
butttt on the bright side, i got the highest score on the biology test, halloween, blah blah blah. hmm ... i'm just not in the partying mood.
oh, a highlight of my day after school was that on the biology test, there was a essay question. eric was really confused about it, so i helped him understand it and he said he got it. so today, he texted me:
"o by the way thnx for helpin me with the essay question because out u i got plus 17"
(out of 25) which was a big deal, considering that was half the test grade.
yeah, that was just one of those moments when you do something nice, and something nice happens for you!
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